Don’t let anything stop you: TRANSFORMATION + CHANGE
“Believe you can and you’re halfway there.”
Theodore Roosevelt
Dear Readers,
Please find below a wonderful post by Lauren Marsh. This is a very power and motivating post. I hope you’ll find it ever so useful in your journey to recovery and healing.
TRANSFORMATION + CHANGE
TRANSFORMATION + CHANGE: Just like you are going through this beautiful and scary transformation in the process of eating disorder recovery, so do I continue to grow and challenge myself to move beyond my own personal barriers and limitations of where I’m at in my life right now.
In our lives we will continue to go through phases of growth, of expansion, and of times when we just feel so fucking terrified and feel PARALYZED to move forward.
Where are you at in your growth, right now?
I just took a huge leap and moved across the country.
And to be completely honest, there are things about this giant LEAP that scared the shit out of me.
Sometimes I feel so afraid to be seen. I still get stressed. Even where I’m at, I still experience fear and resistance in my life.
The different is now — I DON’T LET IT STOP ME.
In the past I used to let stuff get in the way and STOP me from getting what I wanted.
You might find yourself in a similar situation– to where you are so totally MOTIVATED, you get yourself so excited and worked up for RECOVERY, YAY!!!
You think to yourself, “YES I’m going to DO THIS this time!!!”
And then something happens.
YOUR SHIT COMES UP…
It makes it super hard to deal with…. you feel overwhelmed, stressed out and like YOU CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE…
And you go right back to the old behaviors.
It becomes a pivotal point in your recovery when you get to a place where you can SURRENDER and ALLOW the stuff to come up WITHOUT LETTING IT STOP YOU.
To allow the massive FEARS, RESISTANCE and old EMOTIONAL BAGGAGE to COME UP, to MOVE THROUGH IT with courage and grace… and then LET IT GO.
You made the decision to recover.
NOW TAKE THE ACTIONS to back it up.
FEEL YOUR FUCKING FEELINGS!!!!! This is the stuff that REAL RAW RECOVERY is all about!!!!
IT IS TOTALLY OKAY, NORMAL and HUMAN for you to FEEL, darling!!!
One of the BIGGEST THINGS we struggle with in recovery is simply NOT ALLOWING OURSELVES TO FEEL.
We think its BAD, not normal, or it shows weakness…. many of us believe that it is just NOT OKAY to feel sad, angry, hurt, or scared….
But the truth is, this is what makes us HUMAN. This is what makes us ALIVE!!!
Our emotions do not define us.
What we feel is not a reflection of who we are.
It is totally OKAY and SAFE for you to FEEL what you are FEELING and LET THAT SHIT COME UP.
If we don’t, it becomes STUCK inside our bodies, trapped in our neurology.
It weighs us down and gives us even more AMMO that FUELS the eating disorder and other dysfunctional coping mechanisms.
I just upleveled my life again to the MAX. AND SHIT CAME UP!!!
And with every leap we take, there will be stuff that comes up that we have to deal with.
Even though this leap was huge and scary, it was also exciting and exhilarating.
WE HAVE TO GO THROUGH IT. Otherwise we will NEVER get to the other side.
We do it because we WANT to.
I CHOSE THIS. You chose this path, too beautiful soul.
And even if it is hard, it is painful and difficult, we MUST persevere.
This is where our strength and courage and self esteem is born.
This is where our character is developed and we learn what COMMITMENT, DEDICATION and DISCIPLINE really means.
It’s choosing what is for our HIGHEST GOOD, in the LONG TERM… rather than just doing what is comfortable and getting that short term HIGH or GAIN that HURTS us in the long term.
YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!
I BELIEVE IN YOU!!!!
So allow yourself to go through whatever SHIT it is that you need to today, knowing that it is perfect and normal to feel messy, chaotic and out of control sometimes.
You are worth it. You deserve this.
And you WILL come out the other side stronger, wiser, more CONSCIOUS and AWARE.
You are WAKING UP and it is BEAUTIFUL to witness!!!!!
Embrace this special time in your life and know that if I can do it, so can you. 🙂
