Dear Readers!
A cry of Help from a 15 year old Girl who’s suffering from an Eating Disorder. They say Eating Disorders are not about weight, size and body image but are psychiatric disorders that need effective professional medical help to overcome it.
Then why this 15 year old girl was turned away from help? Aren’t Eating Disorders complex psychological illnesses?
What deeply disturbs me is the attitude by some professionals in her life and their beliefs that she is seeking out attention through her eating behaviours.
I am not a professional, just an amateur blogger, a mere human being in recovery from her anorexia nervosa, even with my very limited knowledge I know that this girl has a lot of thoughts and attitudes that go with an eating disorder and her entry in her diary is a testimony to the fact that she is clearly distressed by her illness. This is a cry of help; her eating disorder is an expression of something else. When no-one understands you then at times certain behaviours kick in, body becomes a symbol to try and put across that expression. It is the body that tries to deal with things that cannot be articulated or expressed to those around you.
It’s not fair to tell someone, who is going through a deep- troubled psychological pain, that your body looks fine, you are not emaciated enough to deserve help. Eating Disorders can occur in people of any body weight. These people need to understand, how Eating Disorders are not about body and weight but about mind. Isn’t it pitiful, how a young person, finally decides to break down some barriers, finds courage to tell someone that she needs help, and instead of praising her for such sheer courage and acknowledgment, they tell her that she’s fine and nothing is wrong with her. I’m truly shocked.
Eating Disorder Diary – 15 Yr old’s cry of Help
Tuesday February 11th-
“Part of me wants to get better. Part of me wants things to change. But part of me can’t even bear the thought of it. I’m so used to sadness. So used to my hate. I want to break down my walls, but it seems so out of reach.
I try to make changes, but my guilt and hatred over powers me. Physically if i want to better, mentally I must remain broken. I can’t restore the balance; not anymore. I need to stop, I know I do, but it’s taken over me, whatever it is. I need help. I want help. I want to live my life to the fullest, but right now that isn’t the option. Right now I can’t picture anything but darkness. I have been defeated yet again…..”
