Fighting My Eating Disorder In Ramadan

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Dear Readers,

Please find below another touching account of battle with an Eating Disorder during the month of Ramadan. This article comes from one of the most courageous campaigners on mental health ever,  Habiba Khanom.

Habiba Khanom Journalist, blogger and mental health campaigner

Habiba Khanom is a BBC News journalist and blogger who is fighting to end mental health stigma.

http://habibakhanom.com/

Habiba Khanom

Thank you Habiba for being a voice to many people. We hope you’ll find this article helpful. It was originally published in Huff UK on 26th May 2017.

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Fighting My Eating Disorder In Ramadan

Every year when Ramadan comes around, I am faced with a tough decision on whether I can start fasting or not.

This year, I personally don’t feel ready and again, I am still medically advised not to fast. For the past couple of months, I have been doing “okay” in recovery. I have been working so hard to fight the thoughts and not starve myself. I have been going to the gym and trying to eat regularly – or as regularly as I can manage.

But everyday I am still disgusted with myself. I still feel fat and ugly and want so badly to lose weight and become hospital bound, again. On some days, I still starve myself from the minute I wake up to the minute I go to sleep. This confirms that if I start fasting, I know I’ll be back to square one. The last thing I want is a massive relapse and fasting gives me an excuse to start losing weight again. The fact that I am recognising this is a massive step. My mindset is much more rational.

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Islam and Eating Disorders founded in 2012 – run by Maha Khan, the blog creates awareness of Eating Disorders in the Muslim world, offers information and support for sufferers and their loved ones.

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