Fitness Marshall Nazia Khatun Overcoming Eating Disorder

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Nazia Khatun Overcoming Eating Disorder

 

There were lots of issues and restrictions growing up. You know your parents wanting you to become one thing and you trying to become another thing.

At that time I wasn’t sure of what was happening to me I had no name for it I just knew that I had to be skinny, that I just want to be skinny, because I thought that being skinny is being sexy and being sexy is being successful, I wanted to be like one of those occasion ladies, models or like those football ladies at I7. I wanted to look hot like those ladies as they were featured in magazines and so on…

Nazia Khatun on Bulimia

Nazia Marshall

 

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Please find below Video Interview of Nazia Khatun, Fitness Marshall with Duke Sayer.

 

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The Fitness Marshall –Nazia Khatun

Video Transcrips

Bangladeshi people’s expectation and culture is to get women married, have children, job at the same place for

I got confused with culture and religion when I was young.

. There were lots of issues and restrictions growing up. You know your parents wanting you to become one thing and you trying to become another thing.

At the age of 16, I wasn’t into other people’s opinion. I knew I want to be something, being something different. I wasn’t trying to think about people, what they try or their impression about me. I was just always being there to be something I want to be.I was always just thinking about something that don’t just make sense.

I studied degree in sociology and I found love and I was beginning to feel I was thinking I was becoming this person in this big world, like I was having a contender and there’s a lot of things going on and being a boxer is was able to address my anger issues.

I was a boxer I didn’t go into boxing to defuse my anger issues. When I got to college at the age of 17, I have a colleague who had always inspired me. She was attractive and I went to interview her as I was the football captain of the girl’s team when I was in college, my colleague has filter and everything was cool,

The time I was 20 then I wasn’t having any filter but I was always angry, like a loose cannibal, snappy, moody and bored. I was bulimic that time, sick and tired of the game with lots of injuries everything boring, boxing was just to have another way of training but I realised how much it has actually helped me in discipline, commitment, get rid of my anger which is in contrast to what others say or experience.

ABOUT MY BULIMIA,

At that time I wasn’t sure of what was happening to me I had no name for it I just knew that I had to be skinny, that I just want to be skinny, because I thought that being skinny is being sexy and being sexy is being successful, I wanted to be like one of those occasion ladies, models or like those football ladies at I7. I wanted to look hot like those ladies as they were featured in magazines and so on…

It got to a point when I was growing up I was mixing with the opposite sex and there are issues; went into sports u know football, swimming and so on.

In Bangladesh, there see no difference in this thing, no acknowledge. Bulimia to them as people don’t take it as an issue. They think it is that not eating or watching food is woman’s thing. I lived with it to the age of 29 and it was only a thing I got used to and it has so much mastered my body, my consciousness of my body and all that.

HOW DID IT STOP?

If you also ask me how it stopped. There were two incidences that made me think of putting a stop to it. The body is an amazing thing. when you make use of sage, you get you got to take the food and you get used to that heaving process. And thee was a time I said to myself that I was not going to make myself sick and that I was going to put an end to the Bulimia and automatically started vomiting and a hand-full of blood started coming out of my mouth and this time my hand was scared with a lot of teeth grazing and a lot of acid, my teeth rotten from the effect of the acid, reflex coming up and I became moody and I always felt bad and never knew it was as a result of the Bulimia.

I realised that I was killing myself just to maintain beauty.

Another instance was at the time when one of my younger sister was 7. I have five sisters and a brother. I am the eldest, she came to me in the bathroom and seeing me she screamed ‘’ Nazia is sick, Nazia is sick’’ that embarrassed me and that was a point of turning around. I felt I wasn’t laying good example for my younger ones me specially my sisters.

One thing I didn’t ask myself then was:

  1. Why do I want this body?
  2. Why am I striv so hard and why did I punish myself so hard?

Just then, I knew I wanted to get hot, confident, sexy and attractive. It was crazy as it backfired at me. That got the best out of me, I didn’t look at the other side, and it was always making me miserable all the time.

So, when I work with clients all the time, ask them why do they need a diet?

They don’t just have a clue. They are just following the masses dogmatically. They are caught in the traps of magazine features making those beauties their role models and imitating specimens. And this circulates over and over in cyclical manner –on every activity.

THE GAME CHANGER FOR Nazia

In 2013, I was 29, I went into depression and it hit me in many areas of my life and when many things were crumbling in my life and when I wanted to get or achieve one basis or the other which all came to me in only one goal. When I felt at that time that I wasn’t attractive enough, ugly, unfulfilled and peoples’ perception about me. Their perception about me caused negative effect on me.

Beating Eating Disorder Nazia Khatun

So when I went into depression and I realise what (1) self-love was about was when I went to a workshop and my thoughts were places it shouldn’t have gone those was suicidal sports, I feel relieved every time I (2) talked about it and to everyone I have talked about it will always tell me they have gone through that stage one time or the order and show me way forward

Depression has really taught me something, about who I am, just knowing now that I am okay and that (3) I will be okay and that is positive image about me leading to freedom. Who Nazia is, the real me, the one that doesn’t have to wear a mask one won’t give a damn about what others will say.

So you (4).should be happy with what you do. That you could be what you want to be, if self-love is something tht needs to be taught from when we were young it would be better. When you realise that you have no self-confidence, self-esteem issues and worthiness, it can be talked to you, it is a process.

I stopped bulimia when I was 24 and I was anorexic before then but the Bingeing and this part of bulimia used to come up and someone said to me that I haven’t (5) worked with someone to get over it, but then I though was right because I was a boxer doing all kind of stuffs and always fitting in with the six pack not ribbed body. That is another disorder in itself because you are doing all the training and the choice of food just to look good, fit and different

LESSONS LEARNT IN THE LAST TWO YEARS.

 

 

In the last two years, I have learnt how to use mind-set and visualisation tools, manifesting themes and cooling on prayers especially in the last 6 months.

Acknowledging that I was actually depressed, suicidal and of course, there is something about these feelings, if you don’t take charge, control or whatever, nobody is going to do it for you. I realise that there are so many people like me out there and the support that they need is the help that they need. Self-love is the key to everything.

Look at the thing that you admire yourself and have a positive mind about yourself; ‘’oh I am beautiful, pretty okay enough. Look at the things that you admire in yourself. Example is  “oh I have a great smile”. Don’t look at the whys, they cause the problems that every image cause.

Nazia’s Mission

 

Nazia Khatun

My mission is to change one body at a time and also to educate females, teach them to empower themselves and living in the body that they were destined to have.

Ignoring side noises like: what others feel that they should do and have the attitude of ‘’noise in the market’’. They need to do what they need to do for their own body type.

My ultimate goal is to go to big events and carry my message out and journey out let them know they are not alone

Based on my background, sport is not a big priority, fitness lessons are not what is next

One of the most changing things that come to me is ‘’I am enough’’ that either you like it or not every passing day, you are going to the subconscious. Those key words were given to me by Merissa Pears. They actually changed my life. About self-development, the only thing I have ever read or listened to that keeps me going are cybernetics but John Maxwell. Cybernetics brings a whole of who we are, how to change and how your gestures changes and again we pay attention to outer body neglecting the inner parts, the brain and the mind-set.

Listen to cybernetics or get the book. It is life changing.

Be at the right time with the right people. Even if you don’t feel like going out, just wash yourself up and go out there. Even if you are scared, you might just meet someone who will change your life forever.

Nazia ON EATING DISORDERS

Eating disorder is a trigger in itself. It made me feel like I wanted to be something that would be acceptable in the society, by family or people. It could be anything, a relationship or a breakdown or death. Could be anything to trigger EDs. You do not know you are into eating disorder except someone points it out to you, the emotion you carry from there could carry you places. But if you are somebody that have emotions causing you to withdraw from people food, everything the other signs you should be addressing.

Seek someone who could guide you through it, coach you through it and facilitate your recovery. These were things I didn’t do. I struggled with them all my twenties.

Another thing I would have corrected if I were to go back in time is the eating disorder.

Most at times I always feel like I have missed something in a certain stage in my life in my twenties; I was always, depressed, isolated, obsessed.

 

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Islam and Eating Disorders founded in 2012 – run by Maha Khan, the blog creates awareness of Eating Disorders in the Muslim world, offers information and support for sufferers and their loved ones.

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